The Hardest Thing


The Hardest Thing

There are a lot of difficult things about a spiritual awakening.

I used to say that “awakening is not for the faint of heart or weak in spirit.”

A spiritual journey has moments of breathtaking beauty and indescribable joy, but it’s also intense, overwhelming, bewildering, terrifying, and brutal. It’s more “both and” than “this or that.”

I’ve been reflecting on my awakening journey lately. It began around 1995 but accelerated in 2012. During those years, Spirit repeatedly tried to reach me, but I was either distracted or too deeply in denial to answer.

**There’s a bible verse that says “Many are called but few are chosen.” There’s some contention around the translation. Many scholars believe that the true translation of that verse to be “Many are called but few CHOOSE.”

Because we are afforded the experience of free will in this reality, as always, it is up to us to choose.

The hardest part of the past 12 years has been when my choices to align with Self and Spirit led me away from familiar and beloved people, places, and experiences.

Growth and expansion eventually brings me to a place that is exhilarating and fulfilling, but it almost always comes at a price. Living in integrity with Self and Spirit has meant giving up things that were once important to me.

Changes in behaviors, patterns, beliefs, and actions have been part of this journey. Giving up cherished things and surrendering long-held dreams have also been part of it. However, the most painful choices have been those that led to the loss of relationships.

One of the most difficult lessons I’ve learned is to accept that not everyone came here for an experience of healing and liberation. Not every soul has chosen the physical ascension path. Even those who have decided to free themselves in this lifetime, have their own unique path. It is not guaranteed that those whom I love are walking a path that is parallel to mine.

This has challenged my innate desire to help and support people. My chart shows a lot of Libra and Virgo energy. I mean a LOT. Both are signs with strong tendencies to care for and please people. I want to see people happy, healthy, and thriving. However, this can lead to martyrdom, co-dependency, and compromising my well-being. We’re all familiar with the concept of filling our own cups before helping others. As flight attendants remind us, we should put on our own oxygen mask first before helping someone else.

My guides have told me countless times over the years that the martyr program is over. They say “Amar, climb down off the cross and use the wood to build something useful.”

I have seen this time and again in my work with clients. I’ve lost track of how many sessions have included dismantling the martyr program in someone’s energy field. It shows up as a huge yoke of really heavy energy across the shoulders and back. It holds people down, it sucks their energy and vitality, and ultimately serves nobody.

I know how hard it is to feel like people close to you don’t get it. It can be excruciating to watch them choose limitation over and over again. Seeing someone you love live in denial hurts like hell.

It is one thing to know yourself as a being that is liberated and free. It is another thing to live as one. I’d say one of the most common questions I get from people is what to do when a loved one doesn’t seem to be on a journey of awakening.

So what can we do when someone we’re close to seems to be on a path that is taking them away from us?

I don’t have all the answers. To be honest, this is something that I still struggle with. However, there are some things that I can share that perhaps will help.

What I know is this.

👉Every thing is a manifestation of choice on some level. When things don’t make sense from our human level of perception, it means that the choice was made from a level of awareness that is currently beyond our comprehension. A spiritual awakening is seldom chosen from the human perspective. It’s almost always initiated by the Higher Self. It’s still you, it’s just a part of you that exists unbound by physical reality. Speaking from my own experience,I avoided Spirit’s call for YEARS! I have moved more than 40 times in my life, and most of those moves were because I was running. My point here, is that you can’t MAKE anyone awaken anymore than you can MAKE someone happy. People come to their awakening in their own time and in accordance with their own Soul. Not a minute before.

💚A human experience isn’t about right or wrong, it’s about value. The reason anything exists in our lives is because there’s a lesson woven into the experience of it. When we liberate ourselves from the labels of bad/good, sinner/saint, right/wrong we create a space for the inherent value in circumstances to reveal itself. We hold ourselves hostage trying to achieve some external level of “rightness” or “goodness” when ultimately it’s about the experience itself. Often we think the way someone else is living is wrong and if they would do it the way we think they should, then they would be happier. That looks good on paper, but ultimately it’s judgmental and borders on narcissism. At the root of this is the idea that we know better because we have awakened and they haven’t.

💥We have no way of knowing what a soul has chosen to live through a physical incarnation. What we assume is a life of suffering and struggle, might be the very thing that a soul wants to experience. The trick here is to remember that a human experience is a mere blip in the arc of a Soul’s journey. The Human experience only exists because the Soul chose it. It’s not to say we should turn a blind eye to human struggle and suffering. Yet, if someone denies help and support over and over, sometimes the greatest gift we can offer is to let them have their struggle.To quote Elizabeth Gilbert: “I've never seen any life transformation that didn't begin with the person in question finally getting tired of their own bullshit.”

️⭐️Everyone is the hero of their own story. No matter how atrocious we think someone’s actions are. In the end, I truly believe that each person is only ever doing what they feel is the best choice they have access to in the moment. Do we need to understand someone to offer them love? Do we need to agree with someone’s actions to accept that they are only doing what they think is the right thing to do? Whether we like it or not, EVERY human holds the divine spark within. Even the ones we don't like or agree with. This doesn’t excuse really awful behavior, but it can open the door to conscious dialogue and open hearted curiosity. In my experience, these are the only two things that ever really invite change.

🙏Moving on doesn’t mean you’re closing the door. Sometimes the most powerful thing we can do for someone is let go. After a long period of trying to get through to someone, often times it’s our decision to move on that finally inspires them to action. To continue to offer support to someone who doesn’t want it or isn’t ready for it only creates suffering. You can decide to move on, and still leave the gate open behind you. You never know what your absence might inspire in someone.

And finally…

🔥The most powerful thing any human can do for another is to live as an example of what happens when you don’t give up on yourself. To show up and do your inner work, to challenge the limiting beliefs you’ve inherited and adopted, and free yourself from your chains, shines a light on the world that cannot be extinguished. Opinions change, ideas fade, but a lived experience of liberation that is witnessed by another moves mountains. When someone sees another doing something that they previously thought was impossible, it opens up a crack in their mental firewall. In the face of hard evidence that it can be done, their entire world changes in an instant.

Right now, many people are feeling the call to move on. They’re leaving behind familiar people and places. This is creating some deep grief within them. I am dealing with this in my own life too.

It’s ok to be sad and upset about leaving. It’s ok to be anxious and uncertain about what’s to come. However, to hold ourselves back because we’re afraid of what that means for another person, isn’t sustainable. It only leads to misery and suffering. It’s not always easy to live the truth of who you are, but it’s the only thing that can ultimately set you free. You never know who might be inspired by your bravery and willingness to live as an authentic expression of The Divine. I think it’s the most beautiful thing we can do for each other.


**Thank you to the person that recently commented about this bible verse on my YouTube channel. Your comment took me on a lovely deep dive through the interpretation of this verse.

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